"two blogs in one day- wusssup wiff dattt?!"

oh &, just one more thing:

happy one month to me and bryciebear as of monday <3 i couldn't be happier.

"cause after all i put you through i know that i'm to blame."

i swear, i have never been this busy in my entire life. it's crazy. i've been lucky if i've even had time to sit down for 10 minutes and just be by myself or be able to do whatever. even right now, i'm sitting here writing this while eating dinner. and the ONLY reason i'm probably even being able to do this now is because i didn't go to school today and softball practice was canceled.

for the past couple weeks all it seems like i've been able to do is what i'm forced to do- at least during school days anyways. my entire last week consisted of school, tanning, softball, pageant practice, dinner, homework, and finalllllly at about 2-3 am, bed. then repeat. nothing more, and definitely nothing less. i missed cheerleading all of that week; i didn't have any time for it. thankfully, i'm now offically done with that until april as of monday night after our boys won in overtime, <3 softball tryouts have been going on for well over a week now. i'm pretty sure we find out what team we're on tomorrow. however, last night, i traveled to mcbee with varsity for our scrimmage. we. got. murdered. with that said, we have lots of room for inprovement. especially me, since i haven't played since i was tiiiiiny. my miss gold and black pageant was this past saturday night. i didn't win anything- but it surely was fun <3 overall, i'm so glad and thankful that i did it. and now i just can't wait til next year when i get to experience it all over again. hopefully, pretty soon i won't be busy like this anymore. and things will kind of settle back to normal.

ANYWAYS,
valentines day is coming up. and i just wanted to point out the fact that i HATE valentine's day with a passion. i always have and i'm not quite sure why. it's not that i don't love getting chocolate, flowers, a teddy bear, and being taken out to dinner- because don't get me wrong, i do. but why should there be one specific day when you show someone how much you care about them? there shouldn't, and i guess that's just something i've learned over time- especially after my long ten month relationship that i so badly took advantage of. when you're 'with someone', dating someone, or even just 'talking to' them, they should be treated like that everyday. not going out and buying presents and stuff- i don't mean anything like that. just that you care. show someone how much you care for them every single day. because, someday, it might all be gone. and you're going to wonder why the hell you didn't treat that person right when you had the chance to. so i guess that would it explain why i don't like it. regardless though, bryce is taking me out to dinner and the movies saturday night as a part of our valentine's day.


i'm in a pretty bad mood right now, all of a sudden. so before i go and type some things i might regret. i need to try to go to bed since i never get any sleep these days! tomorrow is friday, thank god <3 counting down the days until summer.. and it's only the beginning of february. greeeeattt.

later!

"change is better."

it's been three weeks since i've last written a blog. and already, so much has changed. i feel like i'm making 360's all the time. my life goes back and forth so much sometimes it seems unreal. you know- one minute i'm happy, the next i'm stressed, and then i'm back to being happy again. that seems to be the case for me lately. at most points, like right now, i feel like everything is starting to fall into place again. i've been so.. joyfull lately. that's a weird word to use, i know, but it's true. just laughing at everything, always smiling, and having fun. i'm never mad anymore- which if you know me, that's a huuuuge improvement. it's really crazy- but when you've got amazing friends around you all the time and a new guy stepping in, what's their to complain about? nothing, except mono and school. those are really the only two things bothering me and stressing me out. i was diagnosed with mono last week, and i've been out of cheerleading and conditioning ever since. but i head back to the doctor bright and early tomorrow morning to have more tests done. my new semester that started last monday is hard. hard could actually be an understatement honestly. and it's mainly english. i'm going to have to try super hard in that class. guess it's time for me to step up to the challenge though. regardless of those two things- my life is pretty amazing <3 simple as that. great first month of 2011.

70 DAYS UNTIL OPENING DAY! <3

"halfway there."

it's 11:13, and i'm sitting in sociology for the last time. ever. i literally juuust finished all of my exams. done, completely- until may. i feel like i did okay, coulda been way better. i mean, it's not that i didn't study or try, because i definitely did. A LOT. but i've been sick, tired, and overly stressed. i guess exam week kind of just makes you that way.

today is my last day of second semester. and i don't know whether i should be sad or happy about that. i'm definitely glad that i'm now halfway done with my sophomore year of high school. one semester closer to being a senior, graduation, and going to college. but i'm sad, because this semester, i met a lot of new people. and i'm expecting that, starting next wednesday, school will get muuuuch harder. art 1- easy 100. honors biology- according to virginia, i have to take a milllion notes and study every single night if i want an "a" in that class. honors enligh 3- the "hardest class" any of my friends have ever taken, ever. so scared. french 2- tough. since i haven't had french in over a year. who knows, guesss we'll see how it goes.

BELL JUST RANG! <3333 time to go to lunch with my best frend, :) later!