"cause after all i put you through i know that i'm to blame."

i swear, i have never been this busy in my entire life. it's crazy. i've been lucky if i've even had time to sit down for 10 minutes and just be by myself or be able to do whatever. even right now, i'm sitting here writing this while eating dinner. and the ONLY reason i'm probably even being able to do this now is because i didn't go to school today and softball practice was canceled.

for the past couple weeks all it seems like i've been able to do is what i'm forced to do- at least during school days anyways. my entire last week consisted of school, tanning, softball, pageant practice, dinner, homework, and finalllllly at about 2-3 am, bed. then repeat. nothing more, and definitely nothing less. i missed cheerleading all of that week; i didn't have any time for it. thankfully, i'm now offically done with that until april as of monday night after our boys won in overtime, <3 softball tryouts have been going on for well over a week now. i'm pretty sure we find out what team we're on tomorrow. however, last night, i traveled to mcbee with varsity for our scrimmage. we. got. murdered. with that said, we have lots of room for inprovement. especially me, since i haven't played since i was tiiiiiny. my miss gold and black pageant was this past saturday night. i didn't win anything- but it surely was fun <3 overall, i'm so glad and thankful that i did it. and now i just can't wait til next year when i get to experience it all over again. hopefully, pretty soon i won't be busy like this anymore. and things will kind of settle back to normal.

ANYWAYS,
valentines day is coming up. and i just wanted to point out the fact that i HATE valentine's day with a passion. i always have and i'm not quite sure why. it's not that i don't love getting chocolate, flowers, a teddy bear, and being taken out to dinner- because don't get me wrong, i do. but why should there be one specific day when you show someone how much you care about them? there shouldn't, and i guess that's just something i've learned over time- especially after my long ten month relationship that i so badly took advantage of. when you're 'with someone', dating someone, or even just 'talking to' them, they should be treated like that everyday. not going out and buying presents and stuff- i don't mean anything like that. just that you care. show someone how much you care for them every single day. because, someday, it might all be gone. and you're going to wonder why the hell you didn't treat that person right when you had the chance to. so i guess that would it explain why i don't like it. regardless though, bryce is taking me out to dinner and the movies saturday night as a part of our valentine's day.


i'm in a pretty bad mood right now, all of a sudden. so before i go and type some things i might regret. i need to try to go to bed since i never get any sleep these days! tomorrow is friday, thank god <3 counting down the days until summer.. and it's only the beginning of february. greeeeattt.

later!